Monday, March 20, 20017
So ... It's been over a month since I've posted. Ok. I am coming to terms with the eating problem I have and have been counting calories the past few days. I know it isn't much, but, it is a start.
I use FatSecret to count calories. Today was a great day, I stayed well below my recommended calorie intake, and I don't feel hungry, in fact, I still feel full from my dinner of chicken taco boats.
Christ shall be magnified in my body
Sunday, February 12, 2017, 5:37 pm
Praise the Lord, I am feeling better! No more cooties!
I have been doing better with my meal portions and selections; I know I can still do better; I've even been including salad without salad dressing in my dinners.
I am still smoking, but smoking less, and without wearing a patch. When I go out and smoke, I smoke part of a cigarette not a whole one, again, baby steps, but I am doing it without a patch, so it is less nicotine.
Saturday, February 4, 2017, 5:09 am
I feel like I've been run over, forward and back, by a mac truck.
I couldn't stand being in my bed any longer, so I got up around 4:15; hot, cold, coughing, sneezing, sore, and the ceiling fan making my throat sore was more then I could take.
Here I sit, at the kitchen table, my husband is being sweet and making me something to eat; I only had two avocados for dinner last night, so I am a little hungry. I am having 4 sausage links and 2 fluffy, scrambled eggs, with salsa.
For the past 20 to 30 minutes I've been fighting the urge to go outside and smoke. My muscles hurt so bad around my back and lungs; I don't need or want to be out in the cold air, nor do I want to fill my lungs with smoke, it's been several hours, when I quit before it seemed like the 12 to 14 hour mark was super hard, while it hasn't been that long, the urge is still pretty strong.
I am looking at Scripture about taking care of our bodies - here are some that stood out to me -
I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. - Romans 12:1-2
Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God. - I Corinthians 10:31
According to my earnest expectation and my hope, that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death. - Philippians 1:20 - Ok, I think I am going to have to write this one out and put it up on the fridge - this one is really jumping out to me, Christ shall be magnified in my body - I want Christ magnified in my body.
Friday, February 3, 2017
Two things in my life, that I can control, that I can't stand is that I smoke and that I am over weight. I am so sick and tired of smelling like smoke, of being bound to cigarette's, of wasting money, bathing in perfume to try to cover up the smell of smoke ..... uggg I am sick of it all.
Why is quitting so hard?
I did it before, a year ago, for 6 weeks; if I hadn't of been weak, if I would have kept my eyes on Christ, if I would have resisted that temptation that night .... I would be smoke free for more then a year by now ... and all of the money I would have saved and the healing that my body would have experienced.
But here I sit, a year later, sick with the flu, coughing my head off, and still smoking ... oh Father God, please Lord, deliver me from this horrible habit, this horrible, nasty, testimony ruining, health destroying, money wasting thing I do. I want to stop this, I want to be completely smoke free, for the rest of my life. I want to live a long life, smoke free, where I smell good, I feel good, and have extra money in my pocket.
I'll admit when I quit before I did so using patches, and I am wearing a patch now. I am allergic to the patches; I don't know if it's the nicotine or the adhesive, but every time I put on a patch it leaves a little square on my skin that itches to the point of making my eyes water, but, it is better then smoking.
Oh God, please, let this time be it.
One good thing about being sick is I don't feel like eating, so that is a little jump start on cutting my calories back. A few years ago I lost 50 pounds over the course of 11 months by quitting drinking sodas and by counting calories. Per an app I used on my phone, to reach my ideal weight I could consume 1800 calories a day; I took it a step further and got 1500 calories a day fixed in my head, that way I also had a little lea-way; once the weight started coming off I began riding a stationary bike and worked my way up to burning 1000 calories a day on it - my husband was sweet enough to by me a bike with a chair like seat on it for my back, it's super comphy; so, I've done it before, I know I can do it again ... better food choices, stay in calorie range, ride bike